Facing your negative thoughts, actions and behavior:

People become intimidated by your ascension...

it's unfortunately a symptom of refusing to face inner demons, and especially manifests when someone or something, exposes the truths of your shadow secrets....
you lash out...you get angry at the messenger...you ignore...the cause or
are unwilling to face the reality of who you are and consequently you struggle for lifetimes, unnecessarily, stuck in the rut and same issue day after day after day...
always wishing you would heal, but never healing...

It's only when you face the truth of your fragilities and failures and addictions and anger and self destructive behavior , that you have the remote possibility to change it....
if you refuse to address and acknowledge the problem, it NEVER GOES AWAY,
instead you lash out at those who expose your weakness...and rail at those who hit too close to home...
ignoring the realities of your own behavior, transferring blame to everyone and everything for your behavior, except the one responsible for that behavior...YOU...

i speak from lifetimes of experience, which is why I'm here, as an example and teacher, like you...
experiencing the trauma of being human. You will never find, happiness, peace, self awareness and contentment...you desperately seek as long as you refuse to face YOUR TRUTHS>>>>>>>>
If you want to change. If you want to heal, If you want a different life and reaction than the same one you ALWAYS get...YOU...must change...or what you continue to manifest will repeat...over and over,
relationship after relationship...day after day...
a negative loop of self loathing and destruction that plays and plays and plays...
no matter the place, time, or circumstance
because you bring your baggage with you to everything...
but you never open up the baggage...to clean it out...you move to the next phase of life, hide the baggage in the closet and then question why everything is the same...

It's the same because you have chosen it to be so, whether you want to face that or not...
So don't blame the person you are jealous of,
don't hate those who respond in kind call out your negative behavior, by word deed or just your reflection In their eyes as you stare back at yourself
don’t hate the person who IS changing, reflecting and growing...
learn....NO ONE CAN FIX YOU BUT YOU AND NO FIX WILL WORK UNTIL YOU WISH IT TO>>>>>PERIOD

You can't find the keys
you lost in your own house
while you choose sit in the dark
cursing your neighbor or partner
because they have put on the light in theirs and hold their keys in hand...and the light that shines from their windows
reflects through yours
exposing the unkempt cluttered 'home ' in which YOU live...
And know..it does not have to be this way....

YOU determine what you expect, what you get and how you interact with the world...you get back what you give, and conversely, get nothing when you offer nothing...

You are what you DO...not what you say... not what you post, what you wear, what you buy, what you accumulate or what other people think of you...Be...the change you seek...Dare to say "I am!"

We have the choice to forgive or hold a grudge, to help or not help, to respond with kindness and courtesy or with anger and abuse. It's up to us as individuals to regulate and be in control of our own behavior, well before we seek to change someone else's.
Ram/L

The First Book of Pistis Sophia

PISTIS SOPHIA;

A GNOSTIC MISCELLANY: BEING FOR THE MOST PART EXTRACTS FROM THE BOOKS OF THE SAVIOUR,
TO WHICH ARE ADDED EXCERPTS FROM A COGNATE LITERATURE; ENGLISHED

By G. R. S. Mead.

London: J. M. Watkins

[1921]

Biographical data: G. R. S. (George Robert Stow) Mead [1863-1933]

NOTICE OF ATTRIBUTION
Scanned June 2005. Proofed and formatted by John Bruno Hare. This text is in the public domain in the United States because it was published prior to 1923. It also entered the public domain in the UK and EU in 2003.

The First Book of Pistis Sophia

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32 Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62

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